We lost half of our footage from the shoot last weekend. My immediate reaction was to stomp and scream and kill. I'm over it now. Actually, it was really easy to get over after realizing that a high blood pressure ain't gonna fix shit. And this is what I'm actually pretty proud of. I've had a really, really bad temper in the past. I never had control of my emotions until I moved here. I think I've definitely become a lot more sarcastic (some people here are still trying to get used to that) but I don't think I've held any grudges or had screaming matches with anyone since moving.

It helped a lot after hearing from my teacher, Paul. I pretty much just vented about how overwhelming the situation is and how hopeless I felt. He responded by telling me his similar experiences in the past and that all this means now is that we'll have to start getting our creative juices running in order to form something out of the footage we have and that he has total faith in us.

So yeah, it totally fucking sucks. I wish we could just reshoot - fuck, we could in less than a day. But our main actor has been a douche nozzle and I just don't feel like dealing with him. So we're just gonna have to rewrite the script and, whatever, I already have a vague idea of how to work it out. Things ALWAYS work out in the end, and this is only my first project here so I'm trying really, really hard not to care.

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So Ken will be here in EIGHT days! I'm so excited, I miss him so much. Dani and Holman come a few days after and it's just gonna be such a glorious week. I didn't even realize it but two weeks later I come home! I already got my tickets and I'll be home from the night of December 12th til the night of January 22nd. I'm actually really looking forward to visiting CAPA for the first time as an alumni. Even though there are very, very few people I even wanna see, it should still be pretty fun wreaking havoc.

I've started compiling a list of things I want to do when I come home:

1. Get Wawa mac and cheese
2. Go to Sonic
3. Liberty Bell Diner
4. Oregon Diner (this can only happen with Angela and Arina, of course)
5. CAPA chaos
6. Get my first REAL christmas tree for Ken's house
7. Visit Bluebond / play some Mama Chainsaw stuff
8. Cuddle with the Bateman Bitches
9. Play Interior Designer for Danielle and Holman's new place

This list is obviously unfinished