Best week ever and now it's over. They left around 8:30 this morning and I'm so sad, sitting in my empty apartment and it's raining. I usually love the rain but not today. I'm already counting down the days til I come home.


Monday: Ken arrived around 1. I made him an awesome cake and he loved it!



We cuddled alot, walked around Michigan and he got to meet Rachel. We had Thai Spoon for dinner. He didn't like it and I called him a freak. Then we came home, he met Breanna, we watched Tropic Thunder and SEEEEEEEXXXXXX.'

Tuesday: Got up early and went to the breakfast buffet next to the Best Western we stayed at when I first moved here. Then I took him to the film building and let him watch us record the narration for my final film. He met one of my teachers, Julian, and I think Ken has a bigger crush on him than I do. He also met Britt, who came over after recording the narration, and we ended up re-recording all the sound for my film. Ken helped out and he actually had a good time doing it. I was nervous he'd be mad we were doing work but it was fun slamming doors and dragging backpacks full of books to sound like dead bodies. I think we had Jimmy John's for lunch that day and he had an orgasm over the fucking alfalfa sprouts and bread.

Wednesday: Danielle and Holman got here around noon but went right to their hotel to sleeeeeep like lil babiezz. Me and Ken walked around Michigan again cause on Monday I had seen the most adorable bank ever and, being the best boyfriend ever, he bought it for me:



Awwwwwwwwwww. Then Dani and Ho-Tang finally met up with us. I gave them a grand tour of my apartment and we sat around for a bit eating the delicious brownies I made them.



I took them to the RHA Thanksgiving dinner where I fucking dominated at foosball!!! We ate lots of food and Marissa showed up which was cool. Then we went food shopping for dinner the next day and it was a motherfucking madhouse. Worst food shopping experience ever. Came back here and chiiiilllled and I helped Danielle bake apple pies for Thanksgiving.

Thursday: BEST THANKSGIVING EVER!!! Me and Ken got up early to peel potatoes. I started cooking my sweet potato casserole and even though it didn't turn out as well as I hoped (needed more potatoes and less cooking time) I was still really proud that I made it from scratch. No canned shit here!! Dani and Ho-Tang showed up around 1 and we cooked everything else. Marissa came over around 4 with some lasagna and we got to eating not too long after that. We had Nightmare Before Christmas on while we ate which was cute. God damn, we had SO much food. My fridge is packed with everything but the turkey. Lemme list this shit we had:
1. Turkey
2. Sweet potato casserole
3. Baked mac and cheese
4. String bean casserole
5. Baked potatoes
6. Lasagna
7. Stuffing
8. Biscuits
9. Two apple pies



Needless to say, we all needed a nap afterwards. Got up, has some motherfucking PIE!! Then me and the ladiez went swimming while the men folk watched cause they're fucking pussies. Ended up also playing some foosball and watching South Park on the giant TV downstairs.

Friday: Danielle and Holman came over around noon and we watched Polyester. After having Thanksgiving leftovers for lunch everyone napped for a bit. Finally got up, downed some coffee and head out to Belmont. I'm pretty sure they all liked it. Ken liked the Alley but that's only cause the tattoo guys were complimenting his tattoos. Ego much? Lolz jk. Jive Monkey was giving out hot chocolate which was adorable. Um.. we found hilariously ugly Christmas vests in Ragstock and I was very, very close to buying one that had BALLS (ornaments) all over. A flaming black guy saw me looking in the mirror and was liek "Mm, gurrl dat look goooood!" HAHAHAHAHA. I ended up getting a very classy sweater thanks to my boo man<3 After walking around a lot we went to Clarke's for dinner. Came back here and watched Fred Claus which was actually not too bad.

Here's an adorable hat I found in (I think) Jive Money. FUCKING BUNNIES!


Saturday: Went to Millennium Park and did the tourist thing. Lots of good pictures that I'll get around to uploading never. Walk walk walk. Watched people ice skate, contemplated it for a second until noticing the 40 minute wait and 100 person fucking line. Ended up going to some restaurant Holman had googled that no one could pronounce the name of. It ended up being fucking delicious. We had a tower of onion rings, they had ribs and then we got a deep dish pizza and it was the first one I had since moving here cause I suck at being a Chicagoan. It was delicious and my belly exploded. Came back and watched Hot Rod which everyone liked but me.

Today: Slept through my alarm and a phone call and a text. Finally up around 7:30 and got sad that they were leaving. Me and Ken had breakfast and cuddled a bit until Danielle and Holman got here. Pretty much just packed their shit and left and I tried really hard not to cry but I did as soon as I walked away cause I'm a little bitch. I came back and slept til noon. Now I'm being lazy. I need to clean and finish up my John Waters paper/presentation. It's not even gonna be hard - it's actually done I just need to bullshit an extra page. But I feel pretty blah and fuck - it's Sunday and I just don't feel like getting off the couch. It's my room mate's birthday too so I gotta get her present together and maybe decorate our door.


Blah blah, 13 days til I'm home!

I'm mentioning this now so it's not a surprise, just in case it actually moves forward:

I'm considering weight loss surgery.

We lost half of our footage from the shoot last weekend. My immediate reaction was to stomp and scream and kill. I'm over it now. Actually, it was really easy to get over after realizing that a high blood pressure ain't gonna fix shit. And this is what I'm actually pretty proud of. I've had a really, really bad temper in the past. I never had control of my emotions until I moved here. I think I've definitely become a lot more sarcastic (some people here are still trying to get used to that) but I don't think I've held any grudges or had screaming matches with anyone since moving.

It helped a lot after hearing from my teacher, Paul. I pretty much just vented about how overwhelming the situation is and how hopeless I felt. He responded by telling me his similar experiences in the past and that all this means now is that we'll have to start getting our creative juices running in order to form something out of the footage we have and that he has total faith in us.

So yeah, it totally fucking sucks. I wish we could just reshoot - fuck, we could in less than a day. But our main actor has been a douche nozzle and I just don't feel like dealing with him. So we're just gonna have to rewrite the script and, whatever, I already have a vague idea of how to work it out. Things ALWAYS work out in the end, and this is only my first project here so I'm trying really, really hard not to care.

endrant.


So Ken will be here in EIGHT days! I'm so excited, I miss him so much. Dani and Holman come a few days after and it's just gonna be such a glorious week. I didn't even realize it but two weeks later I come home! I already got my tickets and I'll be home from the night of December 12th til the night of January 22nd. I'm actually really looking forward to visiting CAPA for the first time as an alumni. Even though there are very, very few people I even wanna see, it should still be pretty fun wreaking havoc.

I've started compiling a list of things I want to do when I come home:

1. Get Wawa mac and cheese
2. Go to Sonic
3. Liberty Bell Diner
4. Oregon Diner (this can only happen with Angela and Arina, of course)
5. CAPA chaos
6. Get my first REAL christmas tree for Ken's house
7. Visit Bluebond / play some Mama Chainsaw stuff
8. Cuddle with the Bateman Bitches
9. Play Interior Designer for Danielle and Holman's new place

This list is obviously unfinished

Going to pick up the camera, lighting kit and sound equipment in about ten minutes.
This film has cost $80 so far (costume, props, and FOOD [which was half!!]). And I don't even care. I'm so excited because WE SHOOT TONIGHT!!!

So I was at the Obama rally in Grant Park and it was incredible. People went nuts when he won, but in a good way. He made his speech. People screamed, people jumped, people cried. And when he departed so did we. There were no riots, nobody died, nothing had to be destroyed just because something good finally happened. I heard of riots in other cities and it's pretty pitiful. Whether they agree or disagree with the outcome, how is that violence going to change the fact that a (half) black man is now President? Just shut the fuck up and be glad that, if anything, you witnessed a new piece of history.

PS - I can't wait to find out what kind of puppy they get. I FUCKING LOVE PUPPIES.

Reasons why today was great, regardless of the fact I only left the apartment once:

8. I rearranged the living room.
7. Sam brought home a Hellboy 2 poster.
6. I realized I have a genuine friend here. I spent 7 hours with Breanna and when she left I actually felt a little sad cause I didn't want her to go. I can't wait for her to move in with me next semester, it's gonna be incredible. She reminds me a lot of Danielle - no one will ever replace her but it's nice to know that there's more than one person in the world who I'm almost completely compatible with.
5. I bought two giant bags of candy (tootsie pops and mini take 5's) for 2 dollars. The day after Halloween sales are the fucking best. I had to stop myself from buying every 50% off thing they had.
4. I had Panera for the first time in months, probably since I worked there. Creamy tomato soup will never get old. The manager laughed after overhearing me yell at Breanna for putting the utensils in the wrong spot in the little dishes bin and we had some Panera-talk which was hilarious. I miss that place sometimes, only for the fact that there really were some fucking characters there.
3. Me and Breanna watched my old Manson DVD. I literally haven't watched it for at least 5 years. It was nice connecting with my inner mall goth and reminiscing about how fucking ugly and greasey I was.
2. I'm eating home made pumpkin pie right now thanks to Britt.

And the number 1 reason why my day was so great.

1. KEN BOUGHT HIS TICKET TO VISIT. He'll be landing in Chicago at 12:15 pm on Monday, November 24th. I'm so fucking excited, I don't have words to describe how much I miss him and can't wait to be in his arms. Fuck it, I don't care how lame this all sounds. I love him so much and some days I really can't contemplate how I'm going to live 4 years here without him being here to help me through it. It's been so hard but I'm also really proud that we're making it through it.


LOVELOVELOVE.