I've been in Michigan a few days to see my god daughter. Maybe a longer update tomorrow when I'm home but for now here's the little brat after falling asleep eating cheese balls:

I am a pastry makin genius

Not too much going on..


I've been missing people a lot lately. My little taquito's been on a road trip so we haven't talked too much which is understandable though - I hope he's having a good time. They hit the grand canyon yesterday and should be in Vegas today. His name is Shag, I don't think I mentioned that last time. And we all refer to him as [insert random Spanish ANYTHING here, i.e. taquito, burrito, Paco, etc. lol). But yes, I miss him a lot and I hate crushes because I don't like not being able to control my emotions and I can't control that I think about him all the time. It's cute I guess.

I also miss my best friend. There's not much to say about that. It's a give in that I would miss her considering she's 800 miles away Sonic-ing it up and such. I think my time here in Chicago has been pretty close to perfect but her being here would make it 100%.

I miss my cat, too. I just wanna cuddle something and even though she hates cuddling, there's nothing wrong with forced cuddling. I don't mind holding her down with all my body weight just to pet her with my face. She hates that. LOLZ CARELAND.

And of course, my mom. When I had my stupid night I called her as soon as I got home the next morning and she made it all better. Her and my cousin Chrissy should be visiting next month which I can't fucking WAIT for.

Which brings me to Chrissy - I miss her so much, and I almost feel guilty for being away. She's pregnant. I want to be there so bad. I want to be at every doctor's visit, I want to see the ultra sound. I'm most likely going to miss the birth (she's due around Halloween!!) and that just makes me so sad. She's not just like a sister to me - she IS a sister to me, and I hate that I'm missing such important shit. But I guess that's what I have to pay for packing up to pursue my dreams and all that bullshit.

From my preproduction teacher, Dan:

I loved your pitch and I read your treatment and, first off, I just want to say that you are a terrific writer with kick-ass ideas. An original voice and vision like yours is rare. Cherish it. Don't let it go to your head, prepare to be hated by some and loved by others, and just keep following your instincts - because they are fucking great!

Needless to say, I appreciate the story you're trying to tell. The fact that you have these people living in cardboard boxes is extraordinary to me. It's risky to do things differently than everyone else. It might pay off, it might not. But it works for me, and I applaud your audacity in general.


I'm just really motivated and this is helping to push me in the right direction.

So I was helping Britt paint some shit last night. We had lots of left over paint and cardboard so I said, "Hey! Let's make cardboard kittens!!"

Her name is Plum and I love her very much. She lives on top of my TV and is dating Spinach, a green wooden cat who lives on top of Julianna's book case, next to my lamp.

Lots going on.

-Finally got a decent paycheck and then got laid off. They cut hours and since I only work weekends, well, it is what it is.

-Shot a couple movies last weekend. Production weekend with Breayne was definitely a success. I think we spent like 4 days in a row together, not counting class, and I don't remember ever getting sick of her. I like when I find people who I can genuinely have a good time with, even while doing work.

-I did some dumb shit the other night, one of those things where you wake up with regret. I talked to my mom about it and I'm just so glad we have such a unique relationship - I can tell her anything, and she always finds a way to shine a good light on it and make me realize that shit happens and that's okay.

-Last night made up for Friday's shitty night. I met a boy. He's fucking adorable. And Spanish lol. He spent the night, we "watched" a few movies.. it was cute because I thought it was more of a hang out type thing but then he said something like "do you think I'll get another date" and AHHHH. I haven't felt this giddy puppy love feeling in a long time. It's refreshing. He's going on a road trip soon so I might not see him again for a bit. Eh.

-Hit the 30 pound mark! No idea how that happened cause I haven't exercised in 2 weeks, but I really am keeping up with the diet. I had waffle fries the other day though on Marissa's birthday and felt so sick afterward. Like, the bloated gross kinda sick. I don't miss that.

-Starting preproduction for my final film, BEYOND THE BOX. Spent 4 hours at Caribou with my art director and I'm just so fucking excited, I hope it turns out well - this project has become my fucking baby.

-My friend Julianna moved in a few weeks ago. I think I might've mentioned this before but just in case.. She's pretty cool, we're getting along very well but she's definitely no Sam. I miss the fuck out of that bitch.



Hmm, that might be it. I'd say overall things are going really well lately. The whole job bullshit is probably the only thing not working in my favor right now.