So I started the South Beach Diet yesterday and it's already getting hard. I want Fruity Pebbles SO BAD!!! And I'm having my doubts about this diet but I've at least gotta give it a week and see if it does anything. Really, after Phase 1, which is only two weeks, I'll be able to have fruits and other delicious foods, so it'll be a lot easier. Getting through these two weeks is going to be really hard though. The food already seems repetitive and blah blah but what's two weeks compared to the rest of my life? Just gotta fucking do it. I've talked to a few people about weight loss surgery and we're going to an informational thing on the 14th to learn more about it but that is totally a last resort. I don't even know how much my insurance would cover but if I do end up with a lap band I'd at least like to know I tried everything else. I'm pretty motivated, though. I weighed myself for the first time in months and realized I'm creeping up to a certain number that I promised myself I'd never reach. It hit me really fucking hard and so it was perfect timing when a friend at work told me about South Beach. She did it and lost 50 pounds in 6 months. Now I know not everyone will experience the same results, but it's encouraging to know someone else who's succeeded, who has felt the same as me, and who is in reach if I need help. We had lunch together and she gave me a few tips on what and how to eat. She has a few more pounds to go before hitting her goal so she's actually going to try the diet again so it'll be even better to have someone who's doing the same thing as I am.


On another note - I started work! The people are really cool and the job is easy and fun. Saturday they sent me out on my first run alone to fucking PRINCETON, NEW JERSEY. Do you know where that is? It's in the middle of nowhere. I got SO FUCKING LOST. And even though I had a panic attack and had to pull over to find a gas station but instead kept finding farms and even though after I finally got directions, a big black man pulled up next to me asking if I was married and even though I felt so dumb and annoyed and wanted to kill things - it was awesome! I really love driving. At first I was pissed that they sent me on such a long run but it's pretty relaxing and I can talk on the phone even though it's illegal in Jersey but whateva I'm a bad ass. I hope I'll be doing this in Chicago if I transfer to the store out there.

Time to boil some eggs. YUM!!!!!!!!!!