Today was better.


I think I need to just keep things with Ken as strictly friends. I can't deny how I feel about Matt, but I can't deny how I feel about Ken. I guess it's just hard to determine the outcome of this considering one is across the country and the other was my first love. There's no way to compare the situations. Eh.



On a totally different note, the Zee Docta crew is moving to LA in like four days, their last show is Saturday. I don't see Jack often, but it's just gonna be weird. I've known him since I was like fucking eleven or twelve. :(



Blah, blah. I haven't touched a camera in months. I've been craving it, but I just have no time or resources. I miss the summer at UArts, making movies everyday for a fucking MONTH. That was the life, no restrictions and being surrounded by people who actually WANTED to be there and actually LOVED the art. I was so content and motivated. I haven't felt that in so long.